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Name: Samantha
Country: United States
State: Florida
Metro: Ocala
Birthday: 1/14/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: Main Entry: sa搞ism
Pronunciation: 'sA-"di-z&m
1 : a sexual perversion in which gratification is obtained by the infliction of physical or mental pain on others (as on a love object)
2 a : delight in cruelty b : excessive cruelty
Expertise: Main Entry: mas搗ch搏sm
Pronunciation: 'ma-s&-"ki-z&m
1 : a sexual perversion characterized by pleasure in being subjected to pain or humiliation especially by a love object
2 : pleasure in being abused or dominated : a taste for suffering
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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AIM:  Sammiegirl307
Yahoo:  Sammiegirl307
Member Since:
2/22/2004
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| Penis! *shrugs*
I'm reading a new book. It's called Velocity. it's by Dean Koontz.
I'm
only on like chapter two but thus far it's cool. Kinda creepy.....the
sheriff is out back shooting at Mickey Mouse and Donald Duck, and Bart,
Homer, and Lisa, but never Marge....
He must have a mother complex.....
I dunno
I'm mildly angsty today.
Nice change from the last couple days of OMG super emoness.
I dunno.
I'm just like, cheese man, cheese. | | |
| How come when I'm not on my period I can handle all my girl emo bullshit but as soon as it starts i turn into a big blubbering crying bitch.
So, in leiu of this I am going to write all the things that are bothering me down as to try and relieve myself.
1. Mom tolds me she was going tot ake me to see
PotC 2. We didn't go.
2.I have nothing to do and no friends.
3. It doesn't feel like home. I wanted it to, I wanted it to feel like home so badly that i thought it did. But, it doesn't. I thought that maybe I could be happy up here. Away from all the anger and arguing and baby bullshit, but I'm not.I was happier being over with my brother and everybody. Even though it was hot, cramped, smelly, and sometimes very hostile. I was happy.
I was surrounded by familiar faces. I was free to be myself. even if they did make fun of me for doing so. I could beg Teri for sex and have her turn me down all night and I was still happy. Speaking of sex...
4. I havn't gotten any since December of 2004. This wouldn't be a problem, but I have found that sex is a good way to get rid of stress. It makes me feel good. It makes me fee pretty, that someone finds me physically attracive enough to "be" with me.
I know that isn't a good attitude to have towards sex, but I don't know how to change it.
5. I want to let go of the past so badly. But it's there. It's always there it's everywhere. I can't let it go.
I can't forget.
6. Erik. When I saw him at school the other day, and he lingered in the door, I wanted to go out and talk to him, but i was afraid Mom would get upset. She doesn't like him. I just wondered what he would've said. I keep thinking about calling Ameris...his cousinishthingie, and getting his number but I'm afraid to do that too. What would I say to him? He has my number, why hasn't he calle dme? Is he afraid too?
7. I HATE BEING A FREAKING GIRL WITH PERIODS AND EMOTIONS AND STUPID ANGSTY BULLSHIT!
Make it stop.
Please.
Please. | | |
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Switched around my icons again!
Exciting stuff....
That is really sad...the most exciting part of my days now is changing my icons and finding new ones...
Normality sucks....
Never thought I'd ever find myslef thinking that.
All my life, I just wanted to be normal, now I am. And I don't want to be. Weird. | | |
| I'm going to video tape Graduation tonight. I'm so excited! *squeels with happy glee*
Yeah, anyway, not much is going on. That's pretty much all that's happening in my life.
Erik
is pretty much trying to get sex from me and I'm not putting out. So, I
think he's getting bored and moving on. I should be happy...he's not
fucking with me anymore, so I'm good, right?
Wrong. I am jealous. WTF is wrong with me?
Moving on.....
I'm tired....in the sky and bored....
Stupid emo girly bullshit.
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| Me and Erik broke up...it's not as bad as I thought it would be be. I mean I thought i would be more heart broken but i'm not...
Weird!
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